(I’m in the process of updating this page,I now actually live in Springfield,Mo.)
My name is Jeff, I live with my wife and ten year old daughter in a very rural area of Southeastern Missouri. I’ve done many different types of work in my life, too many to mention! My most recent job was as a school bus driver and before that I was a truck driver.
We lost our home a couple of years ago due to a foreclosure and so I’m now living in a small farmhouse in exchange for doing some remodeling/maintainence work. My interests include gardening, raising chickens, photography, writing, computers, and psychology.
I came to know the Lord as a 9yr old boy but my formal discipleship never really happened. I began to use drugs at 12yr’s of age,(1972) smoking pot and taking pills. later in my early twenties I started using cocaine and methamphetamine intravenously.
I quit high school in the eleventh grade and got my G.E.D. I spent several years working mostly as a cook in steak houses and diners, eventually (1985) I moved from Spfd, Mo. To a small town south of Kansas City, Mo. I got married, and a year later we had a daughter …These were some of the happiest years of my life! I never was good at relationships, and so after about 6yrs I was divorced. My wife took my daughter and left the state so I moved back to my hometown of Springfield, Mo. (1995)
I screwed around for a couple of years, had a few more bad relationships, and eventually decided that I’d be better off driving a truck so that’s what I did for about 3-4yrs. I lived in a truck driving produce from the west coast to wherever. Eventually the loneliness of that and my habitual drug use just got to me and I decided to get off the road and try to straighten up my life.
I moved in with my father and began attending narcotics anonymous meetings regularly. (1998) Although I never worked a “step”, it was during this time that I became reacquainted with the Lord. I began to understand what it was that I was after all of those years, one day the Lord opened my eyes and showed me how He see’s me, and what I saw broke my heart. All that I had ever wanted in life was to be loved,and all of the things I’d done were my desperately misguided attempts to accomplish that. He showed me how other people had convinced me that I was no good and that I would never amount to anything. When I saw myself through His eyes I understood how much He loves me, and suddenly I loved me… and I decided then that I would never let anybody lay that kind of crap on me or anybody else ever again.
I really felt as though I was beginning to find my real purpose in life of helping other people break the bondage’s of drugs, bad relationships, other peoples judgments, anything that our enemy uses to keep us from coming to know about our Heavenly Father and how much He loves us! I was remarried, and I’ve been writing blogs for a little over 5 yrs, mostly on yahoo 360…but since their demise I’ve made word press my home.
More than anything, as you read my blogs I’d like you to see how the Lord continues to love and care for me and my family and also that being a Christian doesn’t mean you have to be a prisoner to religious dogma. I’ve been given something so much more precious than money, I’ve been given peace, in the midst of the storm. And I think that’s the most important thing “about me”, and of course it can be yours too if you really want it!