Knowing and Growing!


Just about everybody knows that one of the hardest things to do in this life is to be objective about ourselves. It can be very difficult to see yourself and who you are with honesty.To understand yourself as others do, to see the things they see that our own “too close up” perspective prevents us from seeing. If for just one day we could read peoples thoughts that we interact with…how would it affect us?

Of course we’re no different, everyday as we interact with others we withhold our observations. We think of it as a “kindness” we’re extending not to tell them about some deal breaking aspect of their personality. Instead we just smile politely and let it go, we’d rather not broach the topic at all based on our own “assumption of futility.”  There’s also the risk that sharing our observations with them might open us up to some unwanted emotional reaction or foist us into the role of quasi-therapist based on the nature and severity of their observed behavior or personality quirk. The reasons not to engage people are abundant and valid, however it’s often through this personal scrutiny by others that we have the opportunity to learn some very important things about ourselves.  It’s the stuff that we’re too thick headed to pick up from the subtle hints that people drop about for us.


The realization of our own ignorance is always painful, and in my experience few things have the same power to motivate me to change as much as feeling as if I’m somehow the “Last to know”.

If we could know, or see, exactly who and what we are, and know the truth about the hindrances that keep us from experiencing all the many blessings God has for us here in this world I think you’d see a stampede of people heading for the same place! I don’t think that any of us would be able to get to a church altar fast enough or request nearly enough people to join us in praying for our deliverance from “whatever this thing is that’s on our back”.

That I might be enabled to be who God has purposed me to be,the joyful, healthful, bountiful, wonderful, totally fulfilled me!

2 Peter 1:3

According as his divine power hath given unto us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, through the knowledge of him that hath called us to glory and virtue:

The all important first step we take in truth is realizing our need for a Savior. We start by being convicted by The Holy Spirit of our sinfulness and having a sincere desire to repent and turn from our rebellion back toward God! We accept Christ’s sacrifice as being for us then we can be “born again”.   Then we can begin to grow spiritually in a new relationship “In Christ” based on His atoning blood and the grace which was shown to us that we might wear His breastplate of righteousness.

Psalm 5:12

For thou, LORD, wilt bless the righteous; with favour wilt thou compass him as with a shield.


Ephesians 6:11-13

Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.

Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

If we could see our tormentor, our oppressor, in the light of Gods glory,  for what he truly is, I think we’d all be astonished, not only that we allowed this abuse to go on for so long but that he was able to so deceive us and mankind as a whole at all.

The prophet Isaiah had this to say regarding our enemy Satan…

Isaiah 14:16

“ Those who see you will gaze at you,
And consider you, saying:

Is this the man who made the earth tremble,
Who shook kingdoms,

I once saw a Tom and Jerry cartoon where Jerry stood in front of a flashlight behind a sheet to cast an imposing shadow so that Tom would be frightened of him…It was funny!

But are we just as easily frightened by our enemy who has no real power over us other than what we give him?

His only real power is in the deceptions he’s able to convince us to believe!

I can tell you, that when the lights finally come up someday, and they will… I definitely don’t want to be found cowering in fear there in front of a mouse behind a sheet! Like I said before, I hate being the “last to know”.

I want to KNOW!  Not just to keep from looking stupid..

But so that I can GROW! in all of the ways that please my Heavenly Father…


What about YOU? Would you like to start all over with a clean slate and a new life free from fear and lack and hopelessness? If you’re sick of the scare tactics and the manipulation that Satan is using against you then in the name of Jesus walk up and pull down that sheet and see for yourself what’s had you down, and sick, and depressed and anxious and then…

give him the boot!

It’s HIGH time SATAN, that you know you’re not welcome here anymore!

Jesus is the Lord over my life and I’ve been empowered by Him

to cast you out in HIS name!


Explaining Your life…

This is a title that’s been bouncing around in my head for some time. I would anticipate most people’s reaction to it to be one of,  “To who? I don’t have to explain myself or my life to ANYONE!” and of course you don’t, but how about explaining it to ourselves? How well do we understand the various influences and circumstances that have each played a crucial role in shaping who and what we are today? How important is it after all? Are we still acting out the unresolved issues in our lives? Could we somehow be allowing ourselves to be victimized by our own flawed belief systems? One of the things that differentiates adulthood from childhood is the ability to “see around corners” and that is SO handy, but one day, usually when it would’ve  been the handiest for it to of been true, we find out differently.

We find out that when you think you know most of the answers…naturally they change the questions! We find out that there are things that will knock you down that you never saw coming…


the unofficial statute of limitations on blaming your parents for your messed up life is around 25-30…So I must take the responsibility for myself and my life from here and move on…”

Sometimes, believing that there are no exceptions or extenuating circumstances pertaining to statements like this  is where people become confused. While the statement itself  is true, it becomes more true when you add this to it… “doing the best that I know how to do with what I’ve got” Our parents were supposed to prepare us to be successful in life, to of protected us from making bad choices that would hurt us… either then, or in our future, which is now.

Those who had to raise your hands just then may of had to face adulthood “harmed” or maladjusted. Subconsciously driven like spawning salmon to get your up to now unmet needs met, disregarding what might of seemed to be more rational behaviors for ones which often inspire people to wonder exactly what we were thinking.

Another popular “quip” used by a certain TV psychologist is that “If you choose the behavior, then you choose the consequences” that’s another phrase that is at times used to bludgeon people who couldn’t possibly of  had any idea what the consequences of their behavior would be when they chose them.  There are those of you who even now as you read this are feeling angry or are making that face you make whenever people say something you think is absurd… while thinking to yourself, “these people should just get over it, Lord knows I did” or “what a bunch of cry baby’s, just grow up and smell the responsibility”  You’re anger is a connected issue here, perhaps you’re not nearly as “over it” as you think you are.  What I’m trying to illustrate here is our lack of compassion, and our inability to fully appreciate the love that was shown to us in our lives.

We see people through a one size fits all, good for the goose is good for the gander mindset. Our unwillingness to choose to see others in any other context only leaves us one other option…”As you sow so shall you reap”  and brother,that’s OUR problem.  We’re people who were raised with some if not all of the so called advantages, but was it enough? Apparently not…We still find it necessary or preferable to build our house on the bones of others who  “fell short.” It seems to somehow add to our own self aggrandizement if we can point to all of the people who failed to make it to where we think we are. I’m reminded of the quote, “If it’s a rat race, then let the biggest and best rat win”2536213068_ce3de9a6f2_b

And so it goes…

What’s the real purpose or benefit of being able to explain your life? I think I can sum it up by saying that “It’s not the things people call us that matter…It’s what we answer to” and that it’s only the things that we believe about ourselves that can be used against us by people who are  inclined to do so. Knowledge is power, true ignorance may be bliss, but partial ignorance is like knowing just enough for us to be dangerous. Like we have just enough of an ego to be vulnerable to people who will try to maliciously  lay guilt, lies and shame on you and yet not enough wisdom to understand that people’s condemnation of you are in reality more of a statement about them than they are about you. Since it’s kind of rare to be truly ignorant, or actually irrelevant, there is some merit to our having an understanding of a few critical pieces of truth that pertain to all of us.

Nobody just gets up out of bed in the morning and says “How can I screw up my life today”

Some people will talk to you as if you had, not true.

My parents were raised by people who passed on their dysfunctions to them and who also passed them on to me.

Blame is so pointless! blame who? your parents’,parents’, parents’?

And yet you persist in holding me accountable for being flawed in some way.

Which I will freely admit that I am, I’m just not accountable to YOU! friend…

I don’t believe in blame, I believe in blessing!

All of the most screwed up things we’ve done in our lives are related to our misunderstanding of God and of love, and our search for both.

It’s hard for me to criticize someone who rather than sit on the sidelines  in the “No thanks, I’m “good” section of life chooses to jump right into the mud pit if they believe that the missing piece of their puzzle is somewhere in there…That’s what’s called “courage” which reminds me of the opposite which is “dis” courage, which is what some of the “good” folks I mentioned before will do to you while you’re down there in the mud searching around for whatever it is you’re needing that you won’t find there and that most likely you will only recognize when you hold it in your heart…

As I was driving my bus route this morning through an extremely dense fog the point I’ve been trying to make suddenly came into clear view. As I see it, knowing who just needs a hug and who needs a kick in the pants is very close to being at the essence of love.  At times I see our approach as being one of trying to teach people about nutrition while they’re bleeding profusely, wondering why it doesn’t seem to help them. It’s all about bringing comfort to the afflicted, and affliction to the comforted.

This blog is personal to me, maybe it’s personal to you too. I think that we all find ourselves on both sides of the equation at different times on our journey. I want to say that I am a true believer in people taking responsibility for their thought life which is the ultimate deciding factor in all that happens to us and that it’s in our thoughts that our best opportunity to effect change in our lives is found.

Therefore, be of good courage, fear not, search on, bless your mistakes if they were a part of the process that got you here.  There’s much work to be done, you’re help is greatly needed…



Expression is a word used to describe the “means of conveyance” of an otherwise intangible or abstract concept,quantity,or feeling.

In mathematics, specifically algebra, it’s a symbol or a combination of symbols representing a value or relation to each other.There’s an order to it, and a beautiful symmetry that’s most appreciated by those who understand it’s language. It’s how we interface with the world,the study of which is called psychology.

Music and art of all kinds are also profound method’s of expression.Armies march to the syncopated rhythm of drums, people fall in love under music’s rapturous “influence.” Musical harmonies have a very real effect on the chemical and electrical functioning of our brains, who hasn’t been enchanted by it’s beauty, or it’s resonance within us?

In the field of quantum physics, they have whats called “The theory of Everything.” It has to do in part with whats called “String Theory” which says that at level’s way smaller than we can see with an electron microscope everything is small vibrating loops.These loops are thought to be the common denominator of all physical sciences and that by studying their “expressions” they could give science a whole new perspective on the physical laws which govern all aspects of life as we know it.

That’s why it’s called the theory of everything…

I believe that the consummate expression of anything (including science) is art…

In this instance,I prefer to think of it as a “He-art” (He, being God)

because I think that “He’s” in it, He created it, and His fingerprints are all over it.

Why not? a simple loop shaped like a heart is an expression of love.

(get over the corniness of this, lol it’s my theory and I’ll tell it like I need to)

Like some sort of microscopic signpost that announces to us that the next stop ahead on our cosmic journey will be “love-Town.” How funny would it be if some scientist was looking at these “loops” with a microscope and he turned up the power and saw an eye looking back at him? That kind of gives new meaning to the gospel hymn…

“Oh Let Us Magnify The Lord”

It makes sense to me that God would structure our world in such a way that we all have an equal opportunity to, through our own individual perceptions and aptitudes, come to know His “expression” of love towards us. It transcends our differences, it’s there in all things, it’s the ultimate explanation of “matter” at any level, even of what matters to us, whether it’s microscopic or as big as the universe! It’s a theory that doesn’t appear to rely on any deeper explanation.

Personally, I don’t need a microscope to see God or to witness His miracles…but then I’m not a physicist, I’m a philosopher (of sorts). We both know it’s an elephant we’re describing but we each have a different foundation on which to base our understanding, not of just the elephant but of our creator and the many ways that He expresses Himself, His relationship to us, and His great love for us.