I Think You Know

I’ve always thought that one of the things I do best is to understand (and sometimes explain) abstract concepts. I’m certainly not a concrete linear thinker so that’s all that’s “left” right?

Today,as I reclined in my chair, lost in the serenity of the view outside my window I had one of those disoriented moments…It happened as I was making the transition. It was a moment in which the perceived insanity of this world seemed so clearly juxtaposed against the peace and tranquility of the world I had drifted off into,and like going from hot to cold the effects were magnified.

My next thoughts were analytical and seemed to question the authenticity of what I was experiencing and it’s relevance to anyone besides myself but the case was quickly lost. I knew it was more than just my own egocentric flattery… No,the observance of this familiar topography was a product of months,perhaps even years, of subversive confoundment at the perfect storm of circumstances that seemed to not only be following me but hanging over the whole world as well!

One very dark cloud that’s predominant characteristic or quality lies in the inability of anyone to put their finger directly upon it

I’ve noticed that everyday the water seems to get muddier. That with each new shocking headline or catastrophe I become a little more jaded. With the advent of each new previously unthinkable event we’re forced to redefine what is reality.Have you ever wondered “What next?” And then,wanting to turn directly towards that roaring sound you hear creeping up on you, you begin to move only to be halted by your sternest inner parental tone barking out for you to do an about face back towards “reality”? Often it’s accompanied or supported by another inner voice espousing the convincing logic of continuity, the notion that what has happened will always continue on and on,and to think otherwise is well…foolish

2 Peter 3:3-4

Knowing this first, that there shall come in the last days scoffers, walking after their own lusts,4And saying, Where is the promise of his coming? for since the fathers fell asleep, all things continue as they were from the beginning of the creation.

To me it’s no mere coincidence that this is also the concept science bases much of what it espouses to be true upon. That this is the threshold of truth used as a platform for hypothesis and theory to explain practically everything. Be it carbon dating or that most sacred of scientific cow’s “the speed of light” both of which have faced a re-examination in recent years. The crisis then becomes a cliche, it’s almost like saying,

“What if everything you know is wrong?”

Am I being overly abstract even for me, painfully esoteric and annoyingly cryptic?

All apologies…

I’ve chosen to write this primarily for myself, if someone else gets it then great. It’s simply a situation that’s increasingly difficult for me to abide with and so my hope is that by exploring it here I can perhaps put a finger on it or give it a name. In the past I’ve railed against what I perceive as the hypocrisy of institutionalized religion that’s become an “I’ve got mine” Christian social club or the pridefully motivated law keeping that would do the Pharisee’s proud! But that’s not really it. It’s so much broader, and yet it can take the form of small annoying things that seem out of balance or somehow just wrong in your life…like living someplace where flies seem to outnumber humans by 10,000 to 1 or too much month left at the end of the money…

My annoyances and inconveniences seem petty when I look around and see the interminable struggle just to live that’s faced by so many here on this blue and green spinning ball. Reconciling those realities is like trying to ignore some 800lb existential gorilla in the room or not be shocked at an emperor without any clothes. It’s an out of whack reality that can unexpectedly slap you in the face even in your favorite chair or anywhere that the illusion is strong enough, accepted as the norm or thought of as just the way it is

I’m simply trying to relate how in one moment

I was startled to see through the illusion.

James 3:15-17

 15This wisdom descendeth not from above, but is earthly, sensual, devilish. 16For where envying and strife is, there is confusion and every evil work.17But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and easy to be intreated, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy.

To some who read this what I’m saying will make little sense. Others may relate,acknowledging the new status quo of confusion and deception. It’s probably not any revelation to many that this world is going to pot,

but what I’m pointing at is how, on a very personal level,

I feel the effects of what’s happening!

How sometimes it still takes me by surprise.

 like the frog in a pot eventually looking around as if to say,

 “Isn’t it getting hot in here?”

What in the world am I talking about?

It’s really no great matter unless it leaves you different than you were before

Different in what way?

I think you know…

Without A Net

Whether we realize it or not all of us are walking a tight wire of some kind in our lives and our balancing act is always at risk given the thin nature of the “reality” we subscribe to.  Everyday, people in this hard little world fall off that wire, land hard, and are injured in way’s that can be hard to heal. The repercussions of that fall are what we sometimes call a “crisis” which interestingly enough is a word that’s based on the Greek term Krinein which means to decide.

Decide what?

Any trapeze artist you happen to meet will most likely tell you that a certain level of fear or respect is essential to the performance of their craft, but that if you allow that fear to take center stage walking that wire becomes impossible. And while a net can be something that catch’s us and keeps us safe from a fall, it can also be used to keep us in bondage after we’ve lost our balance and fallen into a trap or snare of some type! Safety is of the Lord, but fear is a symptom of spiritual bondage to sin. How is it that after thousands of years we’re still hiding in the bush’s just as Adam did in the garden from a loving God?

I think that the deepest fear any of us have is that of not being loved. Why does it seem as though we run from the thing we need the most or pretend to be above it in some way? Perhaps it’s because in lieu of being able to procure it, we’ve taken on the mantle of god in our own lives and have arrogantly chosen to express or exercise our “divinity” by making god-like choice’s about our lives that no one else can change, even if we’re the one’s that suffer as a result.

Isn’t that a shame?

Ultimately it isn’t us who make our choices, but instead they, who make us!

It’s at these familiar crossroads, these moments of sudden confusing complexity, that like any other subscription we’ve signed up for our fear delivers to us our default answer….

What about me?

Our lives become a frustrating failure when we try to take on Gods role in our lives or when we project onto God our flawed human understanding of love. Most of these misguided actions and bad choices flow from a core belief that the universe we live in is a decidedly unfriendly place, that real love is a lie, and that if there is a God He’s probably mad at us!

No wonder we’re anxious and afraid to step out!  We’re walking on a wire and we believe that we’re working…

Without a net!

Why am I saying all of this? Because there are way too many people who go through their lives making decisions that originate from thoughts sponsored by fear, not love. Who instead of living the life God had planned for them are tangled up in the net of this world and are presently miserable as a result! If hell is an eternal separation from God, Who is love, then you might say they’ve already started doing their time here on earth! In fact, I’ve heard more than a few people refer to their lives as being a “living hell”…I don’t believe that Gods pleased with any of those things at all, actually I think it break’s His heart, mine too…and since I’m trying to be on His team I’m interested in doing whatever He enables me to do to help others choose Him instead!  Being a Christian is simply an ever growing awareness of who we are in Christ and the joyful acknowledgment of Gods saving love that has freed us from the necessity of fear in each and every moment and circumstance of life!

What it means for each of us is that,

Above all we are greatly loved!

Come what may, we do have a safety net…

Jesus caught each of us when we cried out for Him to save us!

You’ve done that right?…Is your life going to suddenly become perfect after you come to know the Lord? NO! what it does mean is that whatever you go through in this life He’s in the midst of it with you! God never promised us a smooth ride, but He has promised us a safe landing! We don’t have to live a life of fear, shame and doubt, or be prisoners to things like worry and anxiety and there’s no reason this life has to be an empty meaningless existence without a hope for eternity when all we really have to do is stop and simply reason this thing we call faith out!

Have YOU traded in fear for faith!

That’s a choice I’m committed to making every day!

“Faith is that state of being in which we’re able to find present comfort in the arms that have held us up all along, and future peace based on the past and the present.”